#20 The GE13 is coming!

Hi :))

 As we all know, the general election is coming. Alhamdulillah, the day millions of Malaysians eagerly waiting for is coming, finally. With this being said, bear in mind that I'm supporting Pakatan Rakyat.

I felt so excited after hearing the dissolution of the Parliament, I started sharing news about soon-to-be candidates from PR, pictures of PR leaders and whatnot. You see, I started to love politics since I was young, prolly because of my parents. And yes, I do intend to involve more deeply into politics one day. Though, nothing is set in stone. So yeah, I was so excited. Frankly, I still am. But, I've been reading some of the comments on facebook and twitter; people saying that those who cannot vote yet, have no rights to talk about politics.

You see, this is BULLSHIT. How is it we cannot talk about politics like any other people? Yes, we can't vote yet, but is it wrong for us to express our opinions and thoughts on things that's happening in our own country? Society have always talk about wanting more standout teenagers, more concerned and caring teenagers; so tell me, why can't we talk about politics? It is against human rights for people like them to silent our voices, our opinions on these things. FYI, our opinions DO MATTER. 

Those people keep on saying, ''don't say anything cause you're still a child'' ''Things are complicated, you don't need to get involved with these kinda things''. Jika ini yang dilaungkan mereka, apakah mereka lupa bahawa mereka yang menginginkan anak-anak muda yang berfikiran minda kelas pertama? Dimanakah pemikiran kelas pertama yang disebut-sebut? Apakah masyarakat hanya mahukan anak-anak muda yang berjaya dalam pekerjaan, tetapi lemah dari segi intelektual, hanya mengingat tanpa memahami, hanya menulis tanpa membaca, seorang mahasiswa atau mahasiswi yang berjaya, namun hakikatnya akalnya cetek, pengetahuan secara amnya hanya sekadar cukup-cukup makan..

Salahkan kami mempersoalkan tentang kebobrokan dan ketirisan yang dilakukan oleh kerajaan dalam menguruskan negara? Salahkah kami inginkan sebuah kerajaan yang telus memerintah, ikhlas dalam berkhidmat, jujur dan amanah? Salahkah kami kalau mengingikan semua itu?

They want us to think, but they don't want us to question. How's that working, again? How can we think without questioning things that we think about? Islam encourage the followers not just to read, but to think and to discuss, to question; which is why Allah created us with akal.
Needless to say, you're an idiot if you think we're not qualified or old enough to question and to express our opinions. 

For those who wants us to be grateful and not to be disobedient to the previous government, let me just say this. Yes,  I'm grateful for everything the previous government had done for the rakyat. I thank you for your hard work. But still, we can achieve more than what we have just now. Just because you're afraid of changes, you think it's better to let certain leaders destroy the country with his crony leadership. Rather than giving Malaysia chances to be better, they already claim PR leaders to be incompetent to govern Malaysia. This is nonsense!

We just want to have positive changes being made, and be seen made; justice and fairness exist not just in words. Weaklings and oppressed be treated equally. Certainly, the welfare of the people being taken care by, not just sweet talks from the government. This can only happened when the government listens to what the people wants, not what their political party wants. Thus, as a citizen of Malaysia, I have every right to demand for better, clean, efficient and no nonsense governors!

For people who is still trying to trust Anwar Ibrahim, here's a tip. If BN can supposedly change, why can't a man change for better? Give him the chance to be the next PM. If you don't like him and or you think he's done nothing significant to the rakyat, by all means, Ubah! You can vote him out during the next GE. Nothing is set in stone.

INI KALI, UBAH BAH! ISLAM FOR ALL! MARI MENUJU KEARAH NEGARA BERINTEGRITI! 

Wishing all Malaysians free, fair elections, and a smooth transition to the next parliament! #GE13

#19 Of love songs and happy-ending movies.

I never get tired of listening to Westlife's songs, so melodramatic, so much beauty for a guy who loves his girl, well at least that's what their songs is for me. Unbreakable and Tonight are my most fav songs from 'em.

Lately, I've been asked lots of question relating to my private life ; at what age did I get married (no, I'm not married yet) what kind of guy I wanna date, places I would go with my boyfriend etc. I've told myself that I don't wanna be in any relationship for the time being, but now it's like the nature is going against me. Some of my friends offered themselves to be my matchmaker, no thanks. I already went through a situation where your friend's suggestion could be a screw up, big time. Some of the guys teased me about not having a boyfriend where at my age, I mean who cares if I don't? While we're on the subject, my twitter crush already confessed that he's not looking for any serious relationship for the time being. Ooh bummer.

Eh lain pula ranting stories. I wanna talk about other thing lah. Sigh, sorry guys. So, I've made new friends, and they're girls. Wehoo! They're pretty cool, to be honest. Andrea looks a bit naive, but she's really nice. Jean is quite aggressive and unique, I must say. I could never understand her obsession with black guys. Disclaimer! I'm not being racist or what. I'm just a lil bit confused cause she is so obsessed with black guys, she even tried to influence me to like black guys too. Ahem, too bad I'm a sucker for hot white-skinned guys, sorry :3

So, I saw this picture of Andrea's family on Saturday night. Guess what, her brother's smoking hot! Woot woot! But...... the bro code already stated that we cannot date the other bro's sister ;well in my case, the hot brother. Sob, terkilan hati. HAHA k stop. Plus, Andrea already publicised my weirdness to her family, so memang takda can lah cenggini. Takpe, bak kata omputih plenty of other fish in the sea. Yeah, as if you wanna date a fish. Stupid metaphor. 

I'm imagining things, stupid things whenever I listen to any love songs, except for Taylor Swift's. And I realised that I'm a sucker for a happy-ending movies. This is silly. I should get a real grasp of the world, after I post this. Darn it, I'm out!

P/S: I really wanna write good stuff but then, I realised that I have the talent of talking nonsense or nothing in particular. And y'know what? The ability to rant about nothing is awesome!

#18 Train Man

Hi, ada tak yang pernah baca buku tajuk Train Man? Buku ni best, kelakar gila nak mati. Hihihi :3 

I went to Kinokuniya, KLCC last week cause I got nothing to do after my class finished and since I had to wait for my twin at KL Sentral, I decided to spend some time there. I LOVE IT THERE! So many books I wanna read, so little money for me to even buy 'em T_T
Duit, tolonglah jatuh dari langit. When I was scrolling all the books, I found this book entitled Train Man. Its a sweet story of how a nerdie techie met a cute average girl and fell in love with her. Uuuuuuuu I feel like this book has somehow connected itself with me. Though, I got nothing in common with the characters. Heh

I finished reading the book in almost two hours, tak silap. But for those who wanna buy good books, this is not one of em lah ek. I think you should read this book only when you wanna read something light, and fun, and silly. As for now, I'm planning of saving my money to buy The Perks Of Being A Wallflower. Eeeeeee, can't get enough from the movie! Lorgan Lerman, mesa loves yousa so much, so much. Hikhik

On the other side, do you know that you fart shortly after you die? Ooh that's interesting, huh?

#17 For the first time

Amboi, lama dah terbelangkai blog ni. I wanted to write everyday, really. But so many things is happening, its like I almost got no time to catch up things. Some of my friends keep on texting me, calling my phone just to make sure that I'm still alive. Haha sorry guys, I've been drowned in my new world. No worries, its all good :)

So, my classes are going very well, so far. I love the lecturers, they're approachable and easy-going. I'm getting warmer and warmer day by day. I guess it is a good decision for me to continue my studies here. Although, I kinda have sent few of my classmates the wrong vibe about myself. Seems like everyone is excited for me to have a boyfriend right now. Bueeekk! Keep on trying to hook me up with some of the boys. One of my friend's joke ''Imma hook you up cause I'm a hooker.'' Dirty joke but yeah, it is funny. HAHAHA Sorry Matthews, Sze Yung, and Deric for all the troubles. 

Though I find this one guy to be extremely cute. Yes, he's so cute. He once played for Chelsea youth club. He's so shy, so I find it hard for me to talk to him. Haha :3 Let's call him Annoying A. Yes, his name also starts with initial A. Jodoh tu ehemmm >.< Too bad, he's three years younger than me. Takpelah, its not like I wanna date him or something kan. I just think that he's cute, that's all.

Back to the title for this post ''For the first time'', I decided to post something about my firsts. I was thinking of doing this post cause some of my friends were asking about some firsts of my life. So, I thought of giving it a try. Hehee! Okay, here we go!

1. First kiss- Noooo. Except for my family,I've never kissed anyone before. I mean, guys lah (yes, I'm straight although I might have shown a bit interests in pretty women)

2. First celebrity crush - The ultimate Johnny Depp <3 I totally love him! With his undeniably great acting skills, he has managed to melt my heart millions of times. Awhh man, he's like the hottest guy above 40. Haha yeah, he's kinda old but who cares? He kicks ass, that's for sure. Yeah Channing Tatum, I'm saying that Johnny Depp is so much hotter than you!

3. First boyfriend - He's not someone worthy, I can tell you that. Haha I don't know how did I end up being together with him but I did. I think he's the worst boyfriend I could ever get. Cheated on me, ended up blaming me for his wrongdoing. I'm glad I was the one who wanted to end our relationship. Yeah fat boy, I'm over you since ages. So, stop texting me and stop behaving like we're close everytime we see each other.

4. First breakup - Haha cause I was so stupid during that time, yeah I cried. A lot actually. Takpelah, learn from our stupid mistakes and move on jelah. Maybe pasal ni kot aku jadi heartless? Hihii

5. First rejection - Hmmm sebab this is humiliating, I will only tell you guys brief detail on how it happened. Hekk xD It happened when I was in form one and that guy was in form four. I did see him again, few times cause he's working at his uncle's restaurant near my house. And no, I have no feelings for him anymore. If I ever told anyone about crushing on him again, its definitely a joke. As for me, a relationship that didn't end well before, will never have a happy ending. Exes should not and cannot be friends. Exception for a few people, if ada lah kan. Its hard to be friends with your exes without breaking any boundaries, believe me.

Tu je kot for now. Haha running out of ideas. Ahh, should stop writing now. I gotta do some other things. Not to forget, my deepest condolences to William Yau's family. May he rest in peace. Be well and be safe. For the guys, always be alert and make sure the safety of your family, and yourself, especially. For the girls, let's start signing up for martial arts classes. Maybe learn taekwando or judo or karate so that at least, we can protect ourselves when we face inevitable situations. Hiyaaah! Ciao!

#16 Hectic week.

Hello! :)

It has been a rather hectic week this week. I've gone through 3 days of orientation and it was great! We did lots of jumping and running during the time, I almost burned all my extra calories. Ahakss :P  I've also got so many new friends. I'm actually feeling good about this cause I was worried I won't get any friends here cause I'm a Malay girl. But, I was totally wrong. All the guys and girls are actually quite nice, once you know them. And I've actually got my own clique;- Matthews, Thiru, Sze Yung, Darric, Teck, Rekhi, Netusya, and few others. Yeah, most of them are guys but who cares? I'm comfortable with them and they're cool with me despite our differences. which makes them much cooler.

 We spent most of the time together, and as we're taking the same course, so we've decided to just stick together, no matter what. I told my parents about them and they just laughed when I told them I couldn't find any suitable Malay friends though I'm not the only Malay there. There's this one Malay girl who came to me and wanted to hang with me. She's 19 but damn it, she acts like she's 14. To be honest, I'm glad she's switching to another class cause I just won't get along with her. She allows people to influence her so easily, it's like she doesn't even have her own opinion. And she always thinks negative and useless things such as going to see movies, shopping and having fun and not wanting to study, which makes it worse. Plus, she does all the crappy girl thingy too much, I find it hard for me to control my temperament whenever she's around. Complaining and sobbing about little things, I literally clapped when she told me she's switching classes. Hekhek

I'm not being mean, if that's what you guys think. I just want to study without any distractions with people who wants to study. I already wasted my one precious year, so wasting another year is definitely a no-no for me. If she wants to fool around, then that's her choice, got nothing to do with me. I'm here to study and pass all the exams, so its better if she not around. 

On the other hand, in Brickfields, it's actually kinda hard to find a good and halal place to eat. Fortunately, the KL Sentral is so close to my college and the place have a mini-shop, so I can just buy some bread if I want to eat before my classes. Gosh, many thing's happening, and I may be spending less time on the internet. But it's a good sign, considering that the internet is taking most of my time right now. So peeps, hope you guys enjoy your weekend as I'll be enjoying my weekend with workshops at my college. Yeayyy (Y) Live long  and prosper!

#15 It's time to start over.

It's coming! The day I've waited patiently for so long is finally arriving. I'm going back to school! :DD Haha, I'm feeling so nervous yet, excited for tomorrow to come. I'll be using my brain again, finally. Thank you Allah for listening, even when I'm astray. Hopefully, it's gonna be worth it. I'll make it worth, I will.

Not to forget, thanks to my friends for their huge support and for sharing my happiness on this matter. Sorry for being so secretive, but I just don't think it's necessary for me to tell. If I've offended some of you guys, I'm truly sorry. I just want to make sure that I don't make a fuss about this or else, I'll be facing a huge embarrassment if somehow, I failed. Nauzubillah, minta dijauhkan sangat-sangat T.T So, let's put aside unimportant things and pray for me. Hehe k over.

As for my twitter crush, thanks for the moral support you've given me so far. 

''Don't let someone else take the right of your own self definition. The road to success is always bumpy and trying to reach to your dreams is never an easy task. Take note, you will be tested.''

 Yeah, you influenced me so much right now, so stay cool and brilliant, pretty please! I'm not saying I like you, I'm saying that you gave me something to think about, and something worth thinking about. So, I give you a million of applause for being so awesome. I'm glad you exist :') That's it for now, I guess. Gonna hit the bed right now. So, keep on dreaming and the stars will dream with you :) Adios amigos!

#14 Underestimated and unappreciated.

Hi, depression's talking right now. I'm just so sad and pathetic. Sigh, its been only two days since I started my new year resolutions which one of em is to actually feel better about myself and I'm totally failing. I don't know what to say....

My family has been known as the kind of family that values good education, self-discipline and great self- achievement. Unfortunately, I think I'm the dumbest in my family. So, I have to really work hard to achieve something, like really hard. Whilst my other siblings seems to be enjoying their works and studies pretty well, I'm struggling to even achieve something that would make my parents feel proud of me. I've never really showed them any astonishing achievements since my primary and secondary levels. I'm nothing like my lil brother who got straight A's for his pmr last year, or my big brother who got 11 A's for his spm in 2009. So yeah, I pretty much have nothing to be proud of.

Plus, my twin is so much better than me. She's prettier, smarter and she has all the attention from people around her, kinda. I'm so jealous of her, always have been. But she's the nicest, I think. Whenever I'm feeling down cause others would always make fun of me, she's there for me. And I thank her for that. We often treat each other badly, surely. But it doesn't change the fact that she's my big sister and she has always been there helping me to get up whenever I'm falling and guiding me whenever I'm lost. I know, I always make her angry with my actions and words and I've never really told her that I love her, but really, she's part of my world. She listens to my problems, secrets I've never told anyone and she helps me whenever I'm having allergic attacks.

To be honest, it hurts my self-esteem to see how she can achieve things so easily, learn things so fast. It's like I'm the black sheep of the family. But that's okay cause she deserves it. I just think that a lil bit of support and appreciation from my family won't hurt. Don't get me wrong though. My parents has always been there for me. Aku cuma harapkan kata semangat je dari adik beradik yang lain. Takde kata semangat, diamkan diri pun cukup sebenarnya, asalkan takde kata-kata yang buat aku rasa rendah diri bila bercakap dengan diorang. sigh. What to do? I lack so many things compared to my sister. Takpelah, how can people love you if you don't even love yourself kan? Keep calm and be strong. Allah is always here for me.