#3 Backstabber!

Pernah tak kena back stab? Aku pernah kena. I’ve been there, done that, but hey, it was a very long time ago and I'm not proud of it. It all happened when I was in form two so I guess the immature me was kinda jackass. But now, I'm trying, trying so hard to be a good friend where everyone can count on me and so on. I tried my best to be there for my friends, no matter how close or not close they are to me, I tried. Cause I know that at the end of the day, they too are gonna be there for me. But hey, this post is not about our good friends and so on so forth. This post is about those who back stabbed us; in one way or more that sometimes they are the reason we find it to be so hard to trust other people. Let me tell you one story about one of my best friends. For the sake of the story, let’s call him Baka. Hehe sounds intriguing, huh? Well, let’s begin the story. We were in the same university and well, I’m kinda amiable so I managed to get many great friends here in UitM. So we were being friends as we have lots of common friends. I don’t quite remember how we became so close but then, we were so close with each other that sometimes people were thinking that we were in love with each other. Hmm we were so close with each other that Baka told me all his secrets. Well, most of it I think. He looks sweet and cute and innocent but only Allah knows, how he’s been such a jackass to everyone. Seriously, it’s like he’s wearing a mask y’know? When he’s with other people, he only says good things but when he’s with me, I swore it’s like he’s trying so hard to curse them, to make them look bad and whatever. I know it was wrong for me to just stood there and listen to him rambling about how stupid or annoying people are around him but I don’t know. I just listened to his stories without giving any argument. Yes, I did feel bad untuk semua orang yang kena kutuk dengan dia. But I just didn’t have the heart to scold him or to get mad at him. Hmm I am pathetic, sorry guys. Until, I was close with this one cute guy. Hekhek *gedik kejap* Okay, we both were close with that guy so kitorang pun makin rapat. And I always helped him whenever he got into problems with his girlfriend. So we kinda tolong each other kot, I helped him and he helped me. At this time, sebenarnya dah rasa annoying gila dengan dia sebab he kinda changed, not only with me, with everybody else. People started asking me whether I know what was wrong with him. I just nodded and told them I know nothing. Padahal time ni, he fought with her girlfriend a lot and he always told me how he wanted to end his relationship with the girl but he worried the girl akan frust menonggeng kalau dia minta break. Seriously bro, whatever -_-  Then, I’m getting close to that cute guy and he started to make stupid annoying jokes about me and that guy. We did fight about it once as I asked him not to be so cynical just because his relationship did not work out as he planned.  Tapi macam biasa, he texted me and said he was just being funny and minta maaf and blahblahblah. So dengan tak fikir panjang, I accepted him back and kitorang jadi best friend balik. Sampai habis exam weeks, we were still in a good term. In fact, I cried when I was on my way to go back home sebab asasi habis kan and the thoughts of not seeing my friends, that cute guy and him. Well, he was my good friend. Or I thought so. He still contacted me even after few days of being home, which was a normal thing as I keep in touch with my friends, well most of it. Then one day, he IM-ed me and told me that he didn’t like that cute guy who I was getting close with cause he thinks that guy kinda have crush on him. WHAT?! Can you imagine that? One of my best friends told me his most disgusting and dirtiest story. At first when I heard that story, all I could think of was sampai hati dia buat cerita pasal orang yang banyak tolong dia, anggap dia macam abang kandung sendiri? Heartless kan dia? I cried, really. Time tu baru rasa betapa bodohnya diri ni for defending him when there’s some people who came to me and asked me to be careful with him. Yes, I admit that. I was so stupid that I couldn’t see what the hell he is trying to do. But again, it was good for me. At least, I’m no longer wearing some blindfold that keeps me from seeing the truth. So yeah, after that, I made decision to ditch him and just ignore his stupid story. Well guys, he told me that he himself pun tak pasti sangat whether it’s true or not, but he thinks it’s true. Fitnah tu sememangnya berlegar-legar je sekitar kita kan? That guy is so nice and dia kena tuduh for things he doesn’t even do. I was so sad cause I thought I picked the right person to share all my secrets and stories, but really, he’s a jerk. For the first time, I changed my mind about guys. Not only girls can fake stories and make other people looks guilty, guys too can do it without even you knowing.  Right now, things has been more complicated and I don’t even know what can I do to change it. It’s hard people, especially when someone you trust so much broke it. :( It hurts me so much, not just because he cheated on me by making fake stories about the guy I really like, he also acts like nothing has happened and he never apologize to people who he’s been hurting.  Life goes on, to be fair. But thanks to him, I learnt an important lesson. Never trust people so easily especially the ones who look like a cute innocent person.  So be careful, who knows you might be the next victim? *kening double jerks* :P
p/s: I'm still working on the post about my friends. Err its a very long post so it's gonna take time for me to finish it. *dasar lembab* -____-'' Never mind, just wait for it, okay? See ya later alligator!