Oh yeah, its 2013 already! Yeayy hooraayy! Lots of bad things had happened in 2012, so baguslah dah jadi kenangan lama. I've made a few new years resolutions, its lame but I don't care.
New Year Resolutions ;-
- To be a better person (this includes everything)
- To feel better about myself ;- I'm trying to get rid of my
low self-esteem. Bahaya tau bila self-esteem ni rendah sangat, macam bebal dah aku rasa. - To work harder and harder (a must do resolution sebab aku dah jadi pemalas tahap beruang sob sob T_T)
- To improve myself as I lack lots of things such as cooking skills, learning new stuffs etc.
- To treat people nicer and better (aku baik tapi takpelah, baikkan lagi diri ni. Ehem)
- Less drama and lovey-dovey stuff ;- I really got no time for these kinda things now.
Harapan aku ialah aku dapat buat semua ni. Mungkin tak dapat buat tapi cuba jelah. Amboi, belum buat dah ada negative thoughts -___-'' Gambatte! Dasar pemalas betul den ni.
So, why is this post called the ultimate self realization? Lately, I've been through lot of things, good things and bad things. Things happens, and we don't have the power to stop it from happening, we just have to control the way we react.
Last year, I bumped into my first ex when I went to the mall to buy some groceries with my twin. He realized I was there and he kinda waited for us to meet up at the front entrance, I guess. When I finished buying things, I quickly walked towards my car, hoping that I won't see him. As it happened, he was there at the entrance, waving at me and my twin happily. And what did I do? I did nothing. I didn't feel the need to wave at him back, and I certainly didn't want to see him again, so I looked at him pretending as if we didn't know each other and kept on walking. My twin said that he was pretty sad.
At that time, I felt great. I have to admit, it feels great whenever you get to know you're stronger than a person who once have done something horrible to you. To let him know that I don't care or I'm not affected by his actions at all, really meant something.
So, this is my definition of the ultimate self realization ;- you've gotta learn to love yourself, much much more before you start to love other people. People come and go, the only person that stay is yourself. So, appreciate yourself and start doing something that makes you happy. Stop hurting yourself and start living your life. Life's too short to spend it too much for other people. So peeps, live long and prosper (Y)
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